5, 4, 3, 2, 1 Saturday, April 11, 2009, 6:47 PM Ach, I'm a sunuvagun. By the time I remembered to post last night, it was after midnight and that was that. Not that I mind too much. I was here. I was this-close. Actually, I was friggen upset yesterday, about a matter I can't post about here but wish I could. Basically, it boils down to the fact that, after being accused of something (indirectly or not), I am not convincing at all when I am speaking truth. And I hate that. I need to find out why I'm like that and change that facet about my personality posthaste. Maybe it's just in the heat of the moment--when I am being accused of doing something--that I'm just too taken aback by the surprise of it all. I don't know. Thing is, I'm giving this upsetting idea more weight than I should, but damn. It pisses me off. Just the thought of it kept me from falling asleep. I have to stand up for myself and I've never been good at that, but if I don't do it, nobody else is. I didn't do it. That's all I have to say, right? I wish.
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